The bad side...
I have realised this bad 'attitude' of mine for awhile now... actually there's 2 that's getting to me. I wonder if anyone else shares the same...For one, I get extremely impatient when I'm kept waiting.
Recollecting memories from college, there was once when I was to meet up with others for some committee meeting. It happens that all the other committees were in 1 class, I was the only one in another. Just say, the meeting was to start at 1pm, but their class ended late so I had to wait. I knew clearly that it wasn't any one's fault because there's a class going on, and I kept telling myself its just for a couple of minutes. I sat on the stairway, starring at a blank wall, doing nothing but waiting indefinitely. As the clock ticked by, 2 minutes...5 minutes...10 minutes... 15 minutes.....I felt my temperature rising....on my face, that is. I was getting furious but at the same time i was telling myself to cool down... Didn't work!!
It was shown all over my face when their class ended. I could see my face not in the mirror, but through the reactions of my friends.
I'm sorry, I am not short-tempered, and definitely not showing face to anyone, but it was some chemical reaction that i couldn't control well within myself.
Sad to say, I am still the same today. I haven't been able to control it, and as much as i try not to show it, I think its pretty obvious to others. I wonder if its all in the mind.... but i HAVE tried.
I hate it when others are not punctual, of course, but hate it more when they are not punctual and have no courtesy to call!!!
And maybe that's why I hate to keep others waiting, too, therefore making me even more impatient if I'm keeping others waiting for some unavoidable reasons....
Secondly, I get tired of certain things after some time. I can be soooo into 1 thing for a time, and I'll get very bored of it after that. Most could say its only normal when u get bored of the food, or the songs, or the place...etc etc etc.... But, have anyone felt like they get bored and tired of a person?!
I have.... most especially when he/she has nothing else to say but the same old jokes every time. Its like.... you already know what he/she will say before they even say it. Not because you know each other very well, no. Its because there's just nothing new. Can one possibly talk about the same thing or do the same act over and over again, for... however long?! (well, jobs are different issues altogether...) But of course, I'm only speaking of a very small minority of people I know.
Is it me? Is it just me?? Or is it because of who they are? They whom I probably have to stay away from time to time?
It troubles me, to think that I may have a problem when I get too much of something or someone....
posted by kai @ 2:37 PM
1 Comments:
i lost my patient almost everyday on the road it is traffic jam!why i need to face this everyday? i don like to wait in a damn long Q..this is really horrible!the thing i hate the most in my life is -- JAM!! (not the one you always eat :p)
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