Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda

My Reel 07'

After nearly a year and half of working days, I've finally compiled my works together :)

So if you're wondering what my job is all about, here's my showreel, comprising of works since 2006.



Cheers! :)

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posted by kai @ 10:42 AM 5 comments

Truth I never realised....

A quote on my friend's msn message sparked me, made me stop and think how true it is.

"Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down."

It makes you wonder, why? And...is there really such a person?? A little searching and I bumped into an answer, which i TOTALLY agree with.

"It's a defense mechanism. It is built from life experiences (negative, hurtful ones - can be many or one sever - which can also determine the strength of the wall). You can't break it down. Only the person who built the wall could choose to let you in. They don't open the door for just anyone and it can take a long time). But doors can be opened. When they do open the door, it may only be a little at a time. (But it's worth the wait - they usually have a lot to offer on the inside)."
(courtesy of answer from Yahoo! Answers)

I hate to say but I think I do know someone like that..... and that would be myself.

How many times have someone told me, that i shouldn't build a wall around myself and keep everyone out before even scanning them through? ..... I can't keep track anymore!
How many times have someone told me, that I'm not giving others even a single chance to get to know me better, in depth... I stopped counting.
And then there were times, when others tell me "I want to get to know you better...." But the wall is tough.. it isn't easy to break it down.

To those I call friends, they have known me long enough, broken down all the barriers to find that I'm a talkative, bubbly and warm person. But for many others, they couldn't agree at all, for the me that they know, is quite, shy and sometimes unfriendly.

These barriers are built, for what and due to what reasons? I have still yet to discover, but it is most definitely NOT to keep others out. While unaware of it, I do appreciate all who has cared enough to break it down. And to others who thought the wall was too much a burden, here's another quote I've taken lesson from.

"If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reason he/she couldn't stay, don't cry too much. Just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow you were happy, even for a while."

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posted by kai @ 1:20 PM 0 comments

Freaky dream...

I had the weirdest dream last time... It was more than weird, it was freaky!!! I dreamt that I had 6 toes on my right leg, and 8 on my left!!! There were little toes growing from my toes like smaller branches growing from the big branch. It was really freaky... And I immediately went to a doctor to have them surgically removed.

I looked it up on google...a little dream interpretation, and dreamcrowd.com had this explanation.
"To dream that you lose or gain a toe(s), suggests that you lack determination and energy needed to move forward in some situation "

While i doubt how true this website's explanation is, I'm also pondering how this explanation could somewhat fit into my current situation... physically, mentally and emotionally.

Life's too difficult to get through when there's so much on my mind.....makes you question if you want to be a human again if you believe in reincarnation....

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posted by kai @ 9:48 AM 0 comments